When You’re In It… Not Just Talking About It

I’m going to take you a little deeper with me today. Because right now, I’m not writing from the other side of a breakthrough. I’m in it the middle of it!

This is, without a doubt, one of the hardest seasons of my adult life. The kind of season that rearranges things you thought were stable. The kind that brings emotions to the surface you didn’t expect. The kind that makes you pause and ask, “What is happening right now?”

And if I’m being honest… There are moments where it feels heavy. Moments where my mind wants to spin. Moments where fear tries to get loud.

And Yet… There’s Another Voice

There’s also something else.

A quieter voice.

Not panicked. Not reactive. Not trying to control everything. Just steady.

It says:

“This too is working.”

Not because everything feels good.

But because I’ve lived enough life to recognize a pattern:

The moments that felt like everything was falling apart…were often the moments everything was being rearranged.

What I’m Actually Doing (Not Just Saying)

I want to be real about this part, because this isn’t theory for me right now.

This is practice.

This is what I am actively doing to move through this:

1. I keep coming back to the present moment

Not the “what ifs.” Not the future. Not the spiral.

Just right now.

Because right now… I’m okay.

And when I anchor there, my nervous system settles.

2. I notice the story my mind is trying to tell

And I don’t automatically believe it.

Fear is creative.

It can build entire scenarios that haven’t happened…and then ask your body to react like they have.

I’m learning to pause and ask:

“Is this true… or is this fear talking?”

3. I remind myself: I’ve asked for more

And more doesn’t come wrapped in comfort.

It comes in expansion.

And expansion can feel like pressure before it feels like freedom.

4. I let myself feel it, without letting it define me

This part matters.

I’m not bypassing the emotions. I feel the sadness. The frustration. The uncertainty.

But I don’t make them mean something permanent about my life.

They’re passing through… not taking over.

5. And yes… I lean into what I call “delusional certainty”

Even here. Especially here.

I choose to believe, on purpose, that this is leading somewhere meaningful.

That even this moment… is part of something I’ve been asking for.

Not because I have all the answers.

But because I know what happens when I don’t choose that belief.

The Truth About Trust

Trust isn’t something you feel after everything works out.

It’s something you choose while it’s still unfolding.

And I’ll be honest…

Some days it feels strong and grounded.

Other days it feels like a conscious decision I have to make over and over again.

But every time I come back to it… something shifts.

My breath deepens. My body softens. My perspective opens.

If You’re In Your Own Hard Season…

I want you to hear this from someone who is not speaking from a perfectly tied-up ending:

You don’t have to have it all figured out to move through this.

You don’t have to feel strong every moment to be resilient.

You don’t have to eliminate fear to keep going.

You just have to keep choosing… again and again… how you want to meet this moment.

What If This Isn’t Breaking You?

What if this is strengthening something in you that couldn’t be developed any other way?

What if this is preparing you… stretching you… opening you…

for a version of life that requires a deeper level of you?

Here’s What I Know Right Now

Even in the middle of this…

I can feel it:

I am not stuck. I am not off track. And neither are you.

There is movement happening, sometimes quietly, sometimes invisibly, but it’s there.

Ready to Shift How You Experience This?

If you’re navigating something heavy right now… and you can feel how easy it is to get pulled into fear, overwhelm, or uncertainty… You don’t have to do that alone. This is the work I do.

Helping you regulate your nervous system…shift the patterns beneath the surface…and reconnect with that steady, grounded part of you that knows:

You’re going to be okay. More than okay.

If you’re ready to experience that for yourself, let’s connect at leighkubin.com

Because even in the hardest seasons… something powerful is unfolding.

XXOO,

Leigh